S4E9 Crash Into Me Pt1

Ambulance crashes, Nazis, Exposed arteries and Ava. Tamzen delves into the idea of loosing the ground beneath your feet and the shattering of your foundation..solo! We dissect the heart-wrenching ambulance crash scene, delve into Bailey's marital issues and reflect on Derek's revelations about Meredith.


Have you ever wondered how surgeons manage their relationships in the midst of their demanding profession? We draw parallels between Bailey's storyline and Adele and Weber's relationship, examining how partners outside the medical profession juggle their significant other's taxing lifestyle.

Tamzen and Ayla
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Greys Anatomy Credits
Created by Shonda Rhimes

Starring :
Ellen Pompeo - Meredith Grey
Sandra Oh - Christina Yang
T. R. Knight - George O'Malley
Justin Chambers - Alex Karev
Katherine Heigl - Izzie Stevens
Chandra Wilson - Miranda Bailey
James Pickens Jr - Richard Webber
Patrick Dempsy - Derek ( McDreamy ) Shepard
Kate Walsh - Addison Shepard
Sara Ramirez - Callie Torres 
Mark Sloan - Eric Dane 

Transcript

Speaker 1: 0:01

So you blew me off for a bottle of tequila. Tequila's. No, good for you. It's called, it's right. It's not nearly as much fun to wake up to. Hello and welcome to Scalples and Tequila.

Speaker 1: 0:11

I'm Tamzin and there's no other voice, there's no Ayla. It's quiet in here. It's quiet and strange and I'm writing solo today which, look, there's no one to rein me in, there's no one to pull me back. There's also no one to give you the best sexual innuendo jokes, because you've just got my really terrible, lame ones. I don't know what to do without my other half here, especially for such a big, big episode.

Speaker 1: 0:51

So if you do follow us on social media, you know that Ayla is in hospital at the moment. She has gone in for her you're going to say appendectomy, probably because I watched too much Grey's Anatomy but she's gone in for her hysterectomy, which is incredible. I am so, so proud of her. I've said this before and I'm just going to say it again, and so is Grey's Anatomy. Actually, our bodies have become a battlefield. There is so much politics and fighting around women's bodies and our autonomy over what we can and can't do, and the fight to do anything is really long and hard and taxing. And Ayla has been fighting this battle for years and she has won, which sounds ridiculous because it shouldn't be a winning. You should just be able to say, hey, I want to take this part of me out, because it gives me pain 90% of the time Horrific, horrendous pain that makes it really hard for me to go about my day. But there's all this red tape and all these people saying absolutely not, you are not allowed to have control over your body like that. But she has fought long and fought hard and she did it. She's got it. She's amazing, she's really amazing, and I'm very proud of her. Anyway, yes, she's still in hospital. The operation all went well, but I'm going to leave all that for her to tell you about when she's back, because I have a huge Grey's Anatomy episode to chat to you about.

Speaker 1: 2:38

Today I am doing season four, episode nine crash into me, part one. Can you believe I'm doing this by myself? I can't who let this happen. So today at the hospital we have so much going on and so much very iconic cases as well. We have an ambulance crash, which gives us quite a lot of our patients. Today the ambulance has crashed right in front of the hospital, right in the ambulance bay, because of a seizure of one of our ambulance, one of our first responders, so that causes her to go into the hospital. Her horrific partner, who is a Nazi, who is a racist, who is a bully, who is just the worst human. He has to go into the hospital as well. And then the two first responders who are in the second ambulance, stan and Ray, they well they we don't get to see them go into hospital actually, but they become a huge storyline today as they get stuck in the ambulance. Then we also have our patient, seth Green. His name is Nick, we love him, you all know him, you all remember him. Charming, delightful joy on the screen. Nick and his adorable flirting with Lexi with his exposed carotid artery. And we also have Erica Hahn's patient, whose name I've totally forgotten. He has come in. He's post op, a cabbage procedure and he's come in and he was he's part of the ambulance thing as well. I think he was in the ambulance that got hit. He was coming in for a checkup and now more stuff's happening and we've got his family.

Speaker 1: 4:53

I do have it written down, sorry, friends. Look, this is the part that Ayla normally does. I'm just holding out to get to do the monologue and talk about the themes, but you know we got to talk about patients as well, and so I guess this is where I'm starting. She sent me her notes. Actually I should have read hers, because hers are a lot more detailed. Why are they just like minus silly? And then I guess it's not really a patient. But also we have the return of Ava Rebecca, which is just a giant eye roll for me because I just absolutely cannot. I cannot with her. So let's get into it. We do start every episode, just like Meredith does with the monologue. So let me read it out. It is so weird everyone doing this without Ayla, but let's get into it.

Speaker 1: 5:56

We go into medicine because we want to save lives. We go into medicine because we want to do good. We go into medicine for the rush, for the high, for the ride, but what we remember at the end of most days are the losses. What we lay awake at night replaying is the pain we caused or failed to cure, the lives we ruined or failed to save. So the experience of practicing medicine rarely resembles the goal. The experience too often is asked backwards and upside down. So for me this episode really does feel like it's theme wise.

Speaker 1: 6:41

Thematically is what I'm talking about is I keep going to say loss. I think that's too general, I think it's specifically. It's like it's loss of something stable in your life, it's loss of something that's always been there, of something that you never questioned would go away. It's like when the ground underneath you is rattled or pulled away, loss of a rock or, like you know, a rock in your life, a foundational belief, maybe. I want to keep talking about it. It's there, I can't quite articulate it, but in this monologue, you know, it says the experience of practicing medicine rarely resembles the goal. The experience of doing the thing is upside down. I just think it's this You've got a goal, you've got a foundation, you've got something solid that you I don't think goals the right word but a belief. You know the way it goes, you know it's there, it's always going to be there, but what happens when it? It's shaken and it's not unexpected, it's upside down, I just think. I think it's a very specific, specific type of loss, like you can have loss of people in your life or loss of things. Every loss is hard and it's, you know, something to deal with. But when the very fabric or foundation of something you don't even need to think about every day because it's just always there, it's always has been there, when all of a sudden that's upside down, that's changed, that's shifted or that's gone. That's a different kind of loss and I think that's what this episode is. I don't have the words for it, clearly, and Ayla's not here to pull me up, so you're going to get my rambling, rants and thoughts All right.

Speaker 1: 9:00

We start this episode off in the best way possible dancing it out, and dancing it out for the first time. So Christina is doing the little dance, doing the wiggle, having a time shaking it off. Meredith comes in and she really just wants to talk about Derek. She's very confused about what's going on because Derek is dating. She's like I'm still sleeping with this guy and he's dating because he doesn't want to wait for me to make my decision about where I. You know, he said I'm going to wait for you, but I'm also not going to wait for you because if someone else better comes along, I'm just going to go with them, which is so ridiculous. Fucking Derek honestly. And Christina just says just dance. I'm drinking a tea, by the way. That's what that noise is in my Barbie mug, which is very old and broken button. You know.

Speaker 1: 9:56

Here we go and Christina says, really cutely, she says dancing makes you brave. Because Meredith wants to finally fess up to Derek and say look, don't stop seeing other people, I just want to be seeing each other. Dancing makes you brave. And then we get this moment of Izzy looking in on them and again, like I know, I defend Izzy so much. I feel like I defend her all the time, even though her actions are so shit. Izzy makes me sad. I think Izzy makes me so sad. I just feel like she wants connection and community and someone to understand her so much. So when she goes into this room and she sees these two dancing and having a nice time, she can't quite handle it and instead of just joining in and inserting herself in the dance and involving herself, she gets mad. She's so sick of Meredith and Izzy's oh sorry, meredith and Christina's love affair with each other. She's sick of it. And she goes and complains to George. She says, like we're supposed to be happy, george, you and me, we should be dancing. We should be dancing.

Speaker 1: 11:11

Izzy's greatest loss this season is realizing that she doesn't have a friend. She's turned George into a boyfriend and George was her best friend and she didn't see that coming, this person that she needs so much to get through the day. She needs to talk to him about stuff. She needs someone to vent to and to rant to and to be there for her, no matter what. She always just thought that was going to be George, but unfortunately we have talked about this on the podcast before but it's like she confuses this affection from the opposite sex or from men, because that's who she is attracted to. She confuses it with romantic affection when she really just needs it to be closeness and friendship and the connection needs to stay there. And because of that she's lost something so important to her. And when she sees it in Christina and Meredith she just gets mad and angry, when she could go and be their friend if she wanted.

Speaker 1: 12:23

I mean, I know it's hard. I feel like everyone understands what it's like when you've got two people who are so close and so clicky. You just feel like you're never really going to get in there. I just feel like she doesn't have much of a choice I'm not just of a hope, I guess with being as close as those two. But look, she could have just danced in there still. But instead she's decided that she's going to let all her anger out at Christina and Meredith by being the best at cardio today. That is her goal. She's like I'm going to get to the hospital and I'm going to take up all of Han's cases and I'm going to be the cardio god to piss Christina off. So it is a little bit of Christina. Is he rivalry coming up today?

Speaker 1: 13:13

I think have Meredith and Derek just had like a quickie in the supply closet, like is that what? That's what we're supposed to understand, right? I mean, they're like doing up buttons, she's like fixing his shirt collar. So I assume so. And she dancing did not make her brave, because she should have said right then and there hey, I still have feelings for you. I don't want you seeing anyone else, you parading around the hospital flirting with other nurses, going on dates at Joe's bar right in front of me, like I can't, can't do that anymore. So it's hard, no, it's a hard position for her to be in, but if she just used her words, he's going to like that because that's what he wants. There's a part of me that actually thinks he's only doing that to get her to say that, because we all know he's so obsessed with Meredith. I think that's what he wants her to do. I feel like all the parading around with Sydney and flirting with Rose, I feel like it's all just for Meredith's attention. I think this is what he wants in the end.

Speaker 1: 14:30

Is her to be like Oi, no, no, it's you and me, not you and them, you and me, just you and me, because we keep sleeping together and then you're going on dates with other people and it's awkward. I hate it. Just because you know I am alone in my room doing this, there's like I've been that person, I've been Meredith in this situation, except I don't think the guy likes me, like Derek likes her. But you know, I saw someone for a long, long time, too long, who would date other people in front of me, give out his number, yeah, and it was awful. It made me feel like shit. It was awful.

Speaker 1: 15:20

I probably sounded a lot like Meredith in those days, being so confused and not knowing what to do and just feeling shit all the time, even though you like. But I have a relationship with this person and I, you know, we spend all this time together, we're sleeping together. And then I don't understand then how you can just go and, I don't know, just date other people right there, right in front of me. Anyway, I understand, but Meredith has the upper hand here. She knows she does, she just has to go. Hey, stop it. But also Derek's shit. We don't want this. That's what I have to keep reminding myself. This is what. This is the problem.

Speaker 1: 16:10

I get wrapped up and carried away with the romanticism of it all, the fairy tale of it all. Where's Ayla to pull me up? Being like Tamsen, remember, we don't like Derek. All of the bad things that he's done, all of the times he's made her feel so shit, like, stop it, stop romanticizing him just because of this moment or just because of the way you used to feel. It's not the same. I'm trying to get a little bit of Ayla, you know, talking to me, to pull me up. So there we go. So it's still just the morning and I think I need to talk about actually, no, no, no, no. The other thing we get this morning at hospital is Alex kissing Lexi and she's mad at him because of everything that happened with her dad last episode. But he kisses her, makes her feel special. It's very cute, actually, I think it's a cute little kiss and everyone seems to be running late for Sloan, so quick kiss surprises her. She seems very happy about it and then it's like got to go to this meeting, so I'm taking off my jumper and flashing everyone at the same time. Okay, now I'm going to get to one of the bigger storylines.

Speaker 1: 17:56

This episode and something that they've kind of been teasing out of the last few episodes as well. We see Bailey at home with Tucker and little Tucker, and do you know what's funny? The word which we? It's funny that we haven't actually talked about on this podcast before.

Speaker 1: 18:15

But the word Tucker in Australia is like Aussie slang for food, I think I think more traditionally like native, like native food. I know they used to say it in like the 1800s. It's a very old slang term, but I don't know people in like the Gold Rush days, bush Ranger days, they were saying it and it's still definitely used, but not very much. Like I don't. I don't really say it, but you know it's a slang word, you hear it. But like little Tucker would be like like a snack, like a little, like a little lunch, and if you're at primary school, you know you have, you have like a break and you have like a lunch break, you have like a little break. So we I don't know that I guess in Australia it's like little little lunch and big lunch or like little little Tucker, and there's things in like a lunchbox is also called like a Tucker bag. My, the old supermarket in my small town that I grew up in on the beach we had our supermarket, was called Tucker bag and I don't know it's, it's, I don't know. I'm just finding it funny and I'm sitting here in my office giggling to myself that I just said the word little Tucker. But that's, that's exactly. That's exactly what I need to say, because we are talking about Bailey.

Speaker 1: 19:48

We are home with Bailey, with her son and with her husband, and we haven't seen Bailey's house before. But here we are and we kind of learn a lot about her home life and what's becoming a bit of a trope in the Grey's Anatomy universe. Now her husband is getting sick of her never being home and her never having time for him and she says like I'm only ever home between the hours of midnight and 6am and like, yeah, it would be hard to ever see your partner ever have quality time, but he's getting sick of it, he's getting fed up and we hear her say like, but you have to take care of the baby. And then we hear, and you are volunteered to be like a stay home dad who takes care of the baby, and Tucker knows what job she does. Tucker knows, like, the hours that she keeps they. It's not like she just decided to become a surgeon yesterday, like she's been a surgeon this whole time, her whole life. She went to med school. It's like this isn't a surprise that she's working these hours. But he's starting to get fed up and starting to get angry and it's becoming an issue.

Speaker 1: 21:21

And I just this is hard to talk about because I feel like I need to pick my words carefully but we spoke at length when the same storyline, the same marital problem was coming up with Adele and Weber, because Adele was so villainized for not understanding Weber's responsibilities, not understanding Weber's job and kind of we were to see her as being this like needy wife. And then, on the rewatch and when we deep dove it on here, it's like absolutely not like he's terrible, you'd be a terrible partner, and I don't. I don't think it's in any way the same in terms of you know, bailey knows how to cook and knows how to sew buttons and knows how to do dry cleaning and knows how to look after herself. But again the show is regurgitating this fact that if you are not from the surgical world, if you don't work it well, specifically this hospital you don't understand a surgeon's life, you're not a part of it, you are on the outs. You will never understand and I just I really wish that we could explore a partner that isn't a surgeon but that does understand, because this villainizing these partners all the time for getting upset when they don't see their surgical spouse, I just it's tricky because because Tucker is different in the way that he, bailey, says you volunteered to do this job and he is complaining now, like once they've had the baby. We don't get much hearing about him complaining pre baby. So it does come at an awkward time where you know you kind of want to be like, well, you're not a babysitter, you're a dad, you know you're, you're not just like looking after a baby, like this is your baby, you are a father, it's just your job. Now, like you can't complain that you're taking care of the baby because you have to, because it's your baby, whereas I guess the Adele and Weber situation didn't have didn't have that element to it, but it still is this. You don't understand my life. I am very busy and important and you will never understand.

Speaker 1: 24:14

And to an extent and maybe because I'm blinded by the show, because I, you know, I love these characters and love these world, this world I'm like totally, they don't understand. They don't understand. We understand because we witness everything that they do and these spouses don't. But but I just feel like there has to be some that understand, there has to be some that understand. There has to be spouses out there that understand and a proud. That's the confusing thing, because this has become a trope for this show.

Speaker 1: 25:00

Now, this other ring of spouses that are not surgeons, we see it in, well, yeah, adele and Weber, tucker and Bailey, and in Ellis and Thatcher, because the whole thing with Ellis and Thatcher is that what's the same? He wasn't a surgeon, he didn't understand. So Ellis fell in love with, with Weber, who is a surgeon and does understand. We also vaguely see this moment, not to this extent, but with the vet, when Reddits dates the vet. She's you know, it's all, it's all good, he's so lovely, but it always comes down to the fact that, like he's, he's not a surgeon.

Speaker 1: 25:42

It's just an interesting theme that keeps coming back on this show that how, how are our surgeons going to make relationships work with anyone who isn't a surgeon? Because I even feel like, even if they met at the hospital, if any of our surgeons were ever to date a nurse, seriously I feel like it would be the same thing. Unfortunately, there is such an patronizing looking down and othering of anyone that isn't a surgeon in this show. And you know this isn't, this isn't real life. This is just an interesting commentary on what's going on and this trope that is forming. But look, tucker needs to not be a baby and just look after his own baby. That is where I'm at with that.

Speaker 1: 26:47

So let's get into patients. This big meeting that Sloan is holding is actually to it's basically rounds, but he wants everyone to come in and meet Nick. Nick. Well, nick is Seth Green and this is such a. This is one of those patients that I've never forgotten. This is one that sticks in my memory so much, and I reckon that would be the same for all of you. It's definitely one of those ones. I mean, he's so charming and like joyful on screen.

Speaker 1: 27:23

So Nick had a neck tumour and that's why he's Mark's patient, because Mark was the one to, you know, plastic God the tumour out. But the problem is now he's got a crotted artery that is exposed under a really, really thin, I guess, skin on his neck. I don't know, it's gross, I don't know. But well, anyway, exposed crotted artery and it's it's a bit of a hectic patient because basically at any minute this artery could blow and everyone's a little bit scared in there because no one, I think, wants to be in the room when that artery blows because, as Sloan says, anyone who's here their first job is to stop the bleed and then page me and Nick and Lexi end up striking up a really cute little relationship.

Speaker 1: 28:23

This episode Lexi ends up being one of his main doctors, like the intern kind of on this case, and she's constantly in and out checking his vitals and they have a really cute little banter back and forth, a lot of flirting, you know, kind of almost almost is a bit of a Denny, but but not as like aggressive, it's just a lot cuter. And Lexi and him talk about dating and he says that he's allowed to notice pretty girls. Now he's allowed to notice anyone that isn't his girlfriend and we learn that his girlfriend broke up with him, quite possibly because of the neck tumour. And Lexi gets to talk about how she's dating this nice guy disguised as a jerk. And she's talking about our Alex, our beautiful Alex, and that is exactly it. That's exactly it. And we realise that, look, lexi sees him, lexi gets him because he was kind of the only one that understood Alex for so long that it has not taken Lexi too long at all to see the real Alex underneath his prickly exterior. I love that for Alex and I like Alex and Lexi together, but I mean but you all know who I'm actually wanting Lexi to be with, but I do really enjoy these two together at the moment. So they have a really cute tete-ete. She keeps coming in checking vitals and they're just, it's just cute. It's a cute storyline.

Speaker 1: 30:13

Our other huge event that happens today, because this is one of those episodes that's like this is a big event episode. I mean. I imagine when it came out, I imagine the trailers would have been hectic. It would have been like just footage of this ambulance turning over and probably a lot of blood, and you know, it would have been like major event Grey's Anatomy episode coming this week to Seattle Grace. No, no, no one's here with me. I'm losing the plot.

Speaker 1: 30:55

So there is an ambulance crash. One ambulance absolutely plummets into another ambulance, sending it flying and doing all these tumbles in the air. And then we get these two paramedics who are stuck inside an upside down ambulance Ray and Stan, and Chief and Meredith are our two surgeons on this case at the moment. They stay outside, they run over and we get these really intense scenes of these two men, these two best friends, who are stuck upside down in this ambulance. We have Ray hanging he's still like in his seat, I guess, and he's hanging down upside down and Stan, his whole lower half, is like crushed and bleeding and it doesn't look good for Stan. Stan's wife also works in the hospital somewhere and pretty quickly it's established that, look, as soon as they move anything, as soon as they start trying to get these two guys out like Stan probably won't make it, he's going to bleed out. So Meredith has to go and find his wife and it's really really beautifully acted and directed.

Speaker 1: 32:39

It's a really touching storyline. They there's not heaps to talk about, but it's just worth like a rewatch. It's really, it's really beautiful. He can't feel his legs. There's blood everywhere, like okay, that's not beautiful, that's horrific. But the way that these two men talk. They talk about dating. You know, ray is trying to keep Stan alive by, like talking about how he met his wife and they talk about relationships and Stan makes this joke about. You know, once I die, you have to go into the pubs and pick up women by saying that you watched your best mate die, which now that I'm retelling it sounds really morbid, but in the show it's this. It's this beautiful line between comedy and tragedy that they that they tightrope so well and it's just, I don't know, it's really well done.

Speaker 1: 33:50

Then the wife Sarah arrives and she's incredible. She kneels down on the ground. Even her entrance, like she kind of skids over, lands on the ground and she's at eye level with him looking under the, looking under the ambulance and me. I'm such, a such an active brain. I'm like, oh, she was like just standing off camera, jumping up and down or running like. Or she actually did just run, run into this shot, because it's so, so well done. It's like she's been running throughout the hospital as soon as she heard the news and she just skids on her knees into position and she's right there and we get this. While she's kind of crying and saying goodbye, the camera pans away and we get this really nice moment with Meredith saying to chief I've never seen her before, I've never met her. She, I've worked with her, but I I don't know her and I'm the one that just handed her the worst day of her life, like in her story. That's who I am. I am like I mean, they all know that Meredith isn't the villain, but she, she's the one that Meredith isn't the villain but she the way she says it I handed this woman the worst day of her life and I don't even know her.

Speaker 1: 35:08

I've been seeing a lot of like little little reels, little things on the social media lately that says like it's okay to be the villain in someone else's story and I just think that's a really it's a really interesting way to look at something, because because, yeah, you being the villain in someone else's story as long as it's not, you know, as long as it's not anything too horrific like sometimes you, just you will be unintentionally like part of your day or part of your life is going to go a certain direction that you, you probably are the villain in someone's story somewhere and you can't please everyone, you can't be liked by everyone, you can't. You can't be a hero for everyone, you can't be a star for everyone. You have to be the villain sometimes and I think it's the acceptance of that. That that's okay, especially because you know sometimes there needs to be a villain and in this case, when chief says, yeah, that's that's the job, like someone has to do that Someone has to tell her your husband's been in an accident and it's just a day on the job for Meredith, but it's the worst day of Sarah's life. Yeah, and Meredith has to just be okay with that and has to move on and has to find the moments where she is the hero and has to keep going, because tomorrow she could hand someone the best news of their life. You know, I think in terms of this for the theme as well, I mean, this is a pretty obvious one.

Speaker 1: 37:53

But these, these paramedics, were just doing their job. They just arrived to the hospital, like they had done probably multiple times that day already, let alone every day. They've delivered a patient waiting for their next call. They're about to head out. That's their day to day and all of a sudden, out of nowhere, a colleague of theirs has a seizure while driving and they are hanging upside down watching each other bleed out. Like that's not a complete shakeup of a foundation, if that's not a complete loss of something that's felt solid and real forever, then God, I don't know. I don't know.

Speaker 1: 38:47

So what we get with these two is they do need to start pulling this ambulance apart, like breaking it open to try and get these men out. And pretty quickly, stan who is, you know, just said goodbye to his wife. He yells to Meredith and says stop, because he sees that something's going on with Ray. There's an oxygen regulator stuck in his heart. Part of the oxygen regulator that exists, you know, is in the ambulance, has become lodged in Ray's chest and they didn't see that before. I think it's in his back and it's gone all the way through, and now that they're moving it's become very apparent that it's there. But no one on the outside would have been able to notice that and if Stan hadn't called to stop, it would have probably killed Ray straight away.

Speaker 1: 39:40

So they halt and Meredith ends up having to climb in there and she gets under there, right up into the ambulance with these two men and all of the blood, and Meredith is watching so closely, like her face is right at these guys faces and she has squeezed her body into this wreckage of metal and sharp glass and she is right there when Stan goes. Stan dies, he doesn't make it and it's really brutal and it's really hard to watch. And I think what we're reminded again about Meredith is that she's not even though, yes, she looks scared death doesn't scare her. It's not death, I think she's afraid of it's regret and it's loss. And when I watch this scene, I think what I'm seeing is like her having this huge realisation that Stan and his wife got to say this last goodbye and they've had their moment and they definitely haven't had enough time together, but at least they had it when they had it. And I think when I'm watching this, it's like she's more afraid of regretting the life that she lives than death. She doesn't want to be in a position where she loses out on doing what she wants before the end. But it's not the death part that scares her, it's the not living part. Anyway, sorry, I'm rambling again because that's what I do.

Speaker 1: 42:03

So more things going on today. We've got Hans Patient. His name is Jacob. He has a lot of kids running around. He comes in. He was just here because he's recovering from a cabbage surgery that Hans had done two weeks ago I think. He's two weeks post-op and I don't fully understand this one.

Speaker 1: 42:31

I feel like this was a bit unnecessary. There's so much that happens in this episode. This storyline is definitely not the most important one. I do just think it's here purely for Hans to shut down Mark again and for there to be a heart case so that Izzy and Christina can have this kind of fight over who's going to be the next Cardio God, because there is glass impaled in this man which I mean, he was fine, he was recovering and now, because of this ambulance crash, he's no longer fine and probably needs another surgery to take this glass out of his heart. So Hans actually asks Christina straight away because Christina has finally proven herself to Hans. And then Hans has to go and ask Sloane for help as well, because she wants someone in plastics as she says the best in plastics to kind of patch it all back up after she pulls it out and Mark turns it into like a way to ask her out and she just gets to shut him down again. I think she says if bad jokes and sleazy come on, is all I'm in for I will find the second best, and obviously he hated that, so he's in because he likes to be the best Peace. This also gives Mark an opportunity to ask Alex to come in on this surgery as well. So this surgery will see Han working on it with her intern, with her resident, and Mark will do the end part with Alex.

Speaker 1: 44:34

And that's important for later, because what's happening with Alex today is that all of a sudden, after we have this really cute moment with Lexi, ava appears, which is annoying. A massive eye roll from me because I just I just kind of I just can't like, I just I don't know, I don't know, I don't know if I'm just so aware of what, of how much she fucks up Alex's life, cause like he's moved on, he's fine, he's doing things, lexi's here, everything's good, go away. But I guess, like Rebecca, went back to her life with her husband and again she's just not satisfied, which is why she was running away in the first place, which is why she got on the ferry in the first place. She's so not satisfied, so she needs to leave, run away and come and play. Come and play Ava with Alex for a little while, because that's what makes her happy and she begs him to allow her to come into the surgery, to allow her to watch and you know, she was around the hospital for so long she's like, but there's always so many people in the O'Aa and there's always so many people in the gallery, like you can just let me I don't know what voice that was, by the way, what voice was that? Anyway, anyway, alex, for some unknown reason, let's her sit in the gallery to watch this surgery.

Speaker 1: 46:17

Today we also have the driver of the ambulance, mary, who had a seizure, which is why the ambulance lost control, which is so sad, I think, because how terrifying to not understand when your brain is about to absolutely like turn against you in a way, if you didn't know that you had seizures and all of a sudden you're seizing and it's costed you to harm your workmates, like that's terrifying. I feel like I'm speaking so quickly because I am well, there's so much to get through with this episode. I'm definitely going to skim over a bit of this Mary storyline because I mean, what? Even Mary seems lovely. She has to go and have her brain looked at by Derek.

Speaker 1: 47:52

In the middle of that surgery, the power goes out. Do we need this? We've already got a relationship breakdown of Bailey Heart of gold. Bailey's relationship is breaking down. We have ambulances that have crashed, people hanging upside down. We've got crotted artery boy about to blow and, I'm sorry the power's going to go out in one of the OR rooms. No, thank you. Do we need this today? No, what does this really do for us? It allows Rose to become a computer genius. Excuse me, what is happening? You watch this episode and all of a sudden it's like this is a whole, just feels like a whole different show for some reason. Anyway, the power goes out. Derek needs the power, he needs the computers to be working. This gives Rose a chance to be like I can fix this. It gives them a little bit of banter and she goes all like computer genius in there and fixes it.

Speaker 1: 49:29

I think it's really just for Rose and Derek to have more moments together and for her to impress him and surprise him, because I think Derek likes to think that he knows everything and he definitely didn't see this coming. And yeah, good honor for being like haha, I'm amazing, but I just don't think we needed this today, like a year ago, and Rose says it's okay, and this is the most important line for the Derek and Meredith storyline that we get today. This is actually the Rose and Derek of it all. We get these two moments today well, three if you include the surgery but outside of the surgery, derek gets to say to her that we're friends. Are we friends? Because a friend would tell you that you have licorice in your teeth and which she does, and she takes it out. And this is like this, establishing this bond and how they can talk to each other, which comes up a bit later when Derek is asking about the engagement ring that she has around her neck. And look, we love Rose because she instantly is like you're looking at my boobs, like what are you doing, and calls him out for acting a little bit sleazy when he's just looking at the ring around her neck and they talk about her engagement, her engagement that broke off about a year ago.

Speaker 1: 51:10

And this is where we kind of get the most important line, the most important line for the American Derek storyline that's going on at the moment, because this is like quite a lot of clarity for Derek, I think Rose says don't worry, the engagement was never going to work because I was always very clear about what I wanted and he wasn't, and there's no way to build a future on that. And she says that and she walks off and the camera lingers on Derek, having a bit of a light bulb realisation moment that he's always been clear. He's always said that he wants Meredith, wants to be with Meredith, he wants them to get married. He's ready and she's well, I think she's been pretty clear that she's not ready for that. But he is taking that as her being indecisive and not knowing what she wants. And this is kind of such a catalyst for him to really go right, this indecisive nature of Meredith's, her not turning around and saying this is the plan, this is when I want you, this is how I want you, this is how we're going to make it work. That isn't enough for him and maybe it will never work because they are in such different places, which is hard, and I think that gives him a lot to think about. Alright, I think, maybe, maybe that's also. I think also that does connect to the theme a little bit, because Derek has always well, actually that's not true. I just feel like, potentially, this is shaking Derek's foundation a little bit because in his mind, in his future that he sees, he sees him and Meredith together and maybe this little bit of clarity, this understanding that she doesn't or she doesn't know, or her future isn't as clear, and now he's going to start believing that both parties need to be clear on the same thing for the relationship to work, and not just him Like it doesn't. It might not always go his way and maybe that's a little lesson that he needs to learn.

Speaker 1: 54:13

I also think why I'm talking kind of back on the theme again of this loss, of having a rock. This is also what Ava is experiencing, I think because after her whole new face and the trauma of her horrendous accident and living in the hospital for so long, alex was that rock for her. Alex was that person she felt understood her and was there for her that she could talk to, and once she left, he's out of her life. She's not at the hospital every day anymore. She's gone back to this other life. That didn't feel right and I think she is so lost. She's so lost and that's why she's come back to this place. That made her feel at home, made her feel found, and a huge part of that is Alex, and so she came back to him. I mean, how I feel about that is very different, because she needs to go away. But you know, I think this is her trying to find herself again, and I think I've mentioned it. But, yeah, easy and George, they've lost each other. They tried to turn each other into something else and it's not working Alright.

Speaker 1: 55:40

So the hardest, biggest thing to talk about this episode has got to be Shane. Shane, the racist, nazi, white supremacist piece of shit. That's his name. Now, by the way, aila messaged me and she said you're not allowed to call him by his name, you will only call him the racist. So, look, I've established the racist's name now, it's just going to be the racist.

Speaker 1: 56:15

This is a very complicated, huge storyline that obviously I'm not a person of colour I don't feel I am able to fully talk about from the perspective of, obviously, from the perspective of Bailey, but you know, I'm going to talk about it from an ally perspective. And also, I mean, I don't know, I'm not Jewish either. I'm not Jewish, but my family is Austrian and I have a lot of history. My opa, you know, escaped the war when Hitler was in power and he has a lot of horrendous stories and that time affected my family a lot and it's all awful and devastating and, you know, really, really changed. I mean, the whole world really. But I definitely have a personal connection to that time and it's, yeah, horrific. Anyway, it's not about me, this is totally different. Well, it's not totally different, it's just different.

Speaker 1: 57:43

Okay, shane is in the passenger seat of Mary's ambulance. He is her work partner and it's interesting actually that the show never delves into. Mary is black, mary is person of colour, mary is Shane's partner at work. They must work together every day, they drive together. But it's interesting that the show there's no scene where Mary finds out he's a racist. Like, does she know? I kind of wish they told her. I don't know. It would have been interesting to see her response or even for Shane to say something about Mary, because I don't think you can be Like. They're frontline workers, they're partners, they drive ambulances together. Like they must go into horrendous, brutal accident scenes and terrifying. I just there needs to be a level of trust between the two of them and this racist fuckwit can't even handle Bayley and Weber. Where's the? I just want to know what the relationship is between him and Mary, like. Does Mary absolutely hate this dude or does he keep it all a secret and just secretly not trust her? Or does he actually trust her because he knows her so well, thus negating his whole fucked up belief system Questions, throwing them out there.

Speaker 1: 59:49

So Shane is injured in the crash and he gets pulled in on a gurney and quite quickly, once he clocks that Bayley is bringing him into the hospital. He says I want a different doctor, I want a man, which is annoying enough. And Bayley says a great line. She says my hands may be smaller than a man, but my brain is much bigger, I can assure you. And fuck, yes, bayley, yes it is. But Bayley drags the chief over. Who is who? Just has absolutely no time for this. And quite quickly, this racist is like I just want a different, another doctor, a different doctor. And Bayley is like what are you talking about? You asked for a man. I got a man. Come on, we don't have time for this. You are in pain, you need surgery. Shut the fuck up, let's go. And it's chief who says oh, you mean a white doctor. And he says I have paramedics hanging upside down. I don't have time for this bullshit.

Speaker 1: 1:01:05

Deal with it, miranda, and I think she really, you know, I think the show, I think it's good that they have this storyline in, because this must happen, sadly, not like it's. It's horrendous that anyone would be treated like this anywhere. Anyone would be treated like this in their place of work and have their their skills not trusted because of the color of their skin is so fucked up. It just makes me so mad. It makes me so mad.

Speaker 1: 1:02:04

What continues to happen is he will not let Bayley touch him, which is it's just so hard to watch and it's so uncomfortable and infuriating and you just want to, just want. You just want to her to just walk away and be like cool. Well, no, but as Bayley puts it, like she feels, if she passes this on to someone else, if she gives him what he's asking for, which is a white doctor, if she decides not to operate on him, not to treat him, to walk away, that that is kind of lowering herself to his level and she wants to rise above because she's not him. And man, so hard she, she really does fight, you know, with all of her emotions, this episode because it would be so easy to walk away and she definitely does the harder thing and the bigger person thing. So, just like Derek says, no one would judge you from walking away from this case or passing this on.

Speaker 1: 1:03:17

Ugh, what ends up happening is is Bayley thinks she can kind of play at his own game a little bit, without giving him any satisfaction of winning, and she decides to get Christina. She asks Han well, she tells Han she needs Christina on her case. So she pulls Christina off her, so she pulls Christina off Han's surgery and and it's it's a really tricky thing to talk about because on one hand, on you know, in Bailey's head, she's like I've, I've done it, I figured out the loophole, because Christina is not black but she is not white, so sucked in, like I'm not pandering to your racism, I'm not like letting you get away with this, but I'm also not going to, you know, for you to actually go to surgery and consent and sign these forms, like you're not going to let me do it. So I need someone else. So I'm going to use someone who's not, someone who's not white, someone who's not black.

Speaker 1: 1:04:55

And this absolutely pisses Christina off and I A, because she's pulled off of Han's surgery, which she's been dying to get on for so long. She's been trying to get into Han's good books and she's finally there and she's so excited to be there. And Bailey ruins it and I would be pissed about that too. And then, once Christina is fully understanding of why why Bailey needed her specifically she's pissed off again and I'm pretty disappointed. So this patient ends up having a giant swastika tattooed. So this patient ends up having a giant swastika tattooed on his abdomen, which is really hard to see, I think for everyone it's a really intense thing to see in a TV show, I think as well.

Speaker 1: 1:06:03

And Christina does end up going into this surgery very begrudgingly and does, does tell Bailey after look, she says you've pulled me off Han's surgery, you've taken away from my training and my teaching and my learning because of the color of my skin. And she really resents it and I get it Like. I and also you know, we know that Christina is a Jew, but I don't think Bailey might not have been aware, but she does tell her that and I don't know. I think it's a really important conversation. Bailey needed an ally. She didn't want to do this alone. She needed someone to do this with her. She says we will do this and we'll consider ourselves having risen above. We'll rise above and Christina is just pissed.

Speaker 1: 1:07:21

I think it's all. It's all hard, it's all really hard. I don't think. I don't think Bailey is, like, really really in the wrong. I understand that Bailey needed someone, that Bailey needed to figure out how to get this done, but, but I also really understand where Christina is coming from and I think Christina has every right to be pissed because it's it's true what she says, that the only reason why she was chosen and it's something that impacts her learning is, it's true, it's so tricky, it's so tricky, and this is one of the things that I feel like I don't have the right. I don't feel like I can speak on it properly. I would love to hear other people's opinions on this. I feel for both characters in this situation and I just it's hard, it's really hard and my God, this storyline is just horrible.

Speaker 1: 1:08:49

Yeah, so we don't really have wrap ups this episode because it is a double episode, but we do see that we get a little moment of the gallery on Mark's surgery. Ava is in there dressed up in scrubs, pretending she's a doctor watching down, and Lexi comes into the gallery as well, sits down next to Ava, and they end up having a little chat about how amazing surgeons are. Blah, blah, blah. And Alex gets sprung because Ava says I'm here because the guy that I'm kind of into or seeing, is operating, and Lexi has come in here because the guy that she's into, who she kissed this morning, is also operating and same dude. So it's awkward and it lends itself beautifully into this scene where Lexi goes back into Nick's room Seth Green to complain about her nice boyfriend disguised as a jerk turning out to just be a jerk, unfortunately. And as she's complaining about that, and these two are plotting revenge on their exes, the artery blows and splurts and blood goes everywhere and all of the beeping noises start and they need people and they call for help and Lexi is covered in blood and then it says to be continued Terrifying.

Speaker 1: 1:10:43

So this is my first solo surgery, my first solo podcast and my 007, who knows, was that a corny thing to say? Yes, it was. I'm actually getting out tomorrow morning, so we could record tomorrow morning and then send it out today. And also, fun fact, my nurse is called Izzy. Now I just thought this is the voice recording I received from Ayla, who thinks she's in a state enough to record Clearly. Hopefully you all heard that she is not, but her nurse is called Izzy and that's very cute. So thank you so much for listening and being here on this solo adventure of mine and I hope it was okay and not too rambly, because I'm the most rambly person in the world. If you were a friend of mine, you would get text messages from me and they are probably really annoying actually. But anyway, whatever, I'm rambling again, sending all the healing vibes out to Ayla and thank you all for being here and I'm going to go Bye, bye.